When I used to think about Voldemort’s horcruxes I imagined a soul divided in equal portions residing in the different horcruxes and Voldemort himself. I realised that this can’t be true in The Half-Blood Prince Slughorn describes making a horcrux as splitting ones soul in two. This means that when Riddle made his Diary into a horcrux he split his soul in half and physically removed one half from his body and placed it in the diary. This means that he only had half of his soul left when he made his next horcrux, Marvolo’s ring. This half would have been split in half leaving only a quarter in Voldemort’s body. This goes on and on the amount of soul remaining in Voldemort halving each time he makes a horcrux until he had only 1/128 or 0.78125% left in his body. As shown in the graph above. So next time you wonder why Voldemort could have done some of things he did, remember how little human he had left in him. I don’t know about you but I think that this is crazy.
Come on guys, I didn’t do maths for 14 notes
So are you telling me that Harry had more Voldemort than Voldemort had Voldemort?
No wonder he became progressively dumber
sidneyia said: I have a question. When I'm stressed or worried I sometimes clap my four fingers against my palm repeatedly, is this what's meant by "hand flapping"? I never could figure out what that meant.
i do that too and it feels exactly the same as my other flappy/stimmy movements. there’s a bunch of different ones, from the little kid whole-arm wing flaps to jazz hands or even just flailing around with one finger.
kind of tangenting here, but i just thought of something hilarious. autistic people apparently have a knack for snagging dialogue from TV shows or books or songs and responding with the quotes in ways that seem a little off to non autistic folks. i am terrible with this because i grew up on Doctor Demento and sometimes the lines that feel right and suit my sense of humor require massive explanations.
thing is, i just realized, i also do this with stims! i actually picked one up from a spergy TV character once and it has been my favorite, rapidly switching my first two fingers back-and-forth with elbow bent, hand is up in the air by my ear. i’ll catch myself walking from room to room like this while i’m looking for something i’ve misplaced. i’m sometimes aware of it and have always wondered if i was faking autism because it didn’t originate with me, but i think that no, i’m just quoting again.
i also, and this is so incredibly nerdy, picked up Rikku’s little finger-waggle from FFX (the one she uses in her Overdrive animation). something about the rhythm of it just scratches an itch in my brain. i don’t even care if i look developmentally delayed doing it—feels good, man.
i think i do it in public too, but i have tried not to because i still, despite everything, have a major insecurity thing about being treated as mentally disabled, even though i am. lol. i fucking hate the way people talk down to me, the change in tone and vocabulary and the prolongued silence before replying is not subtle at all.
am not always aware of flapping or stimming. i know for sure i do other stuff because i’ve asked friends to tell me what they’ve observed (i suspected i was asperger well over ten years ago, but i had faulty information at the time that indicated that creativity, empathy and having no aptitude for math ruled out aspergers, and obviously autism is for the violent screaming kid in the corner, yadda yadda) and there was a lot of stuff i thought was just normal (because it felt normal, and i was not aware of other people’s body language at the time) that turns out not to be, at least for non autistic people. after that i started paying attention and yeah, they really don’t do that stuff.
friends are welcome to tell me if i’ve missed any of my own tweaks. i find it utterly fascinating to think of myself as an observable set of stereotyped movements.
sorry if i’m butting in, but that comment at the end of your sixth paragraph made me curious — i’ve asked my psych and my mom about whether i could be taken as autistic and they both said no, so i’m mostly sure i’m not (also most of the things that have made me think of autism appeared relatively recently as far as i know, while what i’ve read tells me autism is usually apparent in childhood though it can be a lot less so once the person has grown and learned coping techniques or acquired a forced sense of social norms?).
HOWEVER (because i’m getting somewhere i swear) when i freak out (as in excitement or tension or fear) over movies and comics and things, i very often do things that look like stimming now, as well as when i get anxious spikes (full-hand flapping, tensing or flexing right hand repeatedly, rubbing pointer with thumb, sometimes rubbing the right side of my nose, wiggling my toes, etc etc). they’re not necessarily obvious except for the flailing or face thing, but i do find them calming or grounding, which i understand is what stimming does.
unless that’s not what you meant by “they really don’t do that stuff”? i thought i could chime in with a thing but now i’m not sure it’s relevant.
Please do butt in, it’s good talks.
I should have phrased that better, I meant to express that neurotypical folks don’t do flapping and stimming casually in public the way I do.
I would say you’re definitely stimming in some way, although the cause could be a couple of different things that aren’t autism. OCD or just general anxiety could do it. hell, i guess i shouldn’t rule out just plain typical people who are very emotive with their body language.
about the diagnosis issue: just in case you got a shrink who hasn’t kept up on the autism research, check ASAN’s excellent page on autistic characteristics and see if that sounds like you. i was not diagnosed by my regular therapist either—she was not trained to evaluate autistic adults at the time, and like you said, we change as we grow up, so a lot of the red flags are absent or altered. she didn’t think i was autistic until I saw a specialist in Minneapolis, who evaluates possible autism full-time. once i had my diagnosis, my regular therapist and I had something new to help explain why some of my issues were not improving, and now we talk about it as part of my issues. the missing piece is found, basically.
which is the main reason i am always hammering away on the awesome benefits of getting diagnosed: if you feel like you have problems that correlate to the symptoms of autism, and regular therapy is not improving these areas, it’s time to talk to your shrink about getting an evaluation to rule out neurological causes for stuff. plus, you can stop hating yourself for not getting better in those areas—you were never broken.
i spun my wheels a long, long time because the literature from even 10 years ago is not adequate,and i am sadly not alone :(
thanks very much for your answer! i’ll go check out that ASAN thing immediately. as for not keeping up with autism research: she told me that she worked with autistic kids at some point, and that it’s obvious when they are, so i guess she might not be as familiar with how it manifests in older people ex teens or young adults but she would know how it’s supposed to appear early on? i might talk it over again, but since i already brought it up once the prospect makes me kinda nervous :P
aaah anyway thank you again :3 your reply was really helpful and very informative.
EDIT: oh oh um darn sorry i have an extra question i need to type it up
No prob! and if you’re not comfortable bringing it up, check out the autism resources online and build a case. you don’t even have to say “this is why i think i’m on the Spectrum”, you could just say “i’ve been reading a lot about autistic adults, and it resonates with me and the things i struggle with. i would like to understand why i’m like this so i can cope better.”
if your shrink still doesn’t respect that ruling out or confirming your suspicions on a troubleshooting basis is important to you, the problem is not on your end. it happens, but i hope you won’t have to deal with that.
cantankerousaquarius said: what i mean is, for a safe space, a tumblr blog is amazingly indefensible. you cant actually stop people from viewing or following your blog. is it's as though you've gone to a park and decided that the spot by the tree is yours and no one is allowed to sit near you or look at you, and then only look at you if they either ask your permission or out themselves to a total stranger. it's an unreasonable expectation, and i guess i want to know your logic behind it.
it’s more like sitting down in a park and having someone you don’t know or trust creepily come sit down next to you and not move when requested and then you’re extremely uncomfortable but you don’t want to move because your friends are there too
and then you feel unsafe and they won’t leave because it’s technically not illegal
it’s creepy as fuck why are you intent on this
That makes you… afraid of strangers? Afraid of all strangers? Convinced all strangers are out to get you? Paranoid? Is the overuse of question marks as annoying to you as it is to me?
I know you’ve blocked me, just like you threatened, but in case you ever have an eye-opening revelation that leads to you deleting your shit list there’s some advice from a “dangerous ablist.” You’re not creating a safe space. You’re creating a list of people who don’t agree with you 100% all the fucking time because you get off on the power trip. You really, really don’t care what someone does as long as they don’t question you at all, which means you don’t actually care about other people, just about you. In summary, whatever your damage, you’re still an asshole.
potatovirgin said: Alright, a safe space is a place where you're comfortable. A safe space is a place where you don't have to worry about the things that make you anxious. A safe space is a place where you don't have absolute control over everyone who enters, but that's okay, because the people in that space are not going to hurt you. A safe space is not one where anyone can waltz into your inbox and make you feel like shit. Tumblr is not a safe space. You're deluding yourself so you can talk down to people.
lmao look at this dangerous ableist
You have my ear on how I’m a dangerous ablist, but only if you manage to explain it without the premise that everyone who doesn’t agree with you is intent on invading your super private public blog space.
By the way, you lost the right to claim you’re maintaining safe spaces for autistic people when you wrote off Actual Autistics who didn’t agree with you and didn’t immediately identify themselves.